If this is a game, it sucks!

I've been home now for two weeks and things are going okay. I love being with my daughter again! My dad dropped her off here about a week and a half ago. When I went to go pick them up at the airport I was positive she wouldn't know who I was, but when she saw me she smiled so big and put her arms out to me. I knew that she knew I was her mommy and that made me feel sooooo good. My dad was such a sweetheart for flying Sierra all the way out here to me, the poor guy fell asleep on my couch as soon as he sat down after getting to my apartment.

Now I'm getting back into the swing of things around here. I forgot how much work, and how little sleep, there is to being a mom. Sometimes I wish Justin was here to help me...but only sometimes. Hopefully he'll take her off my hands every once in a while when he returns home, but a part of me doubts that.

(So all that crap above is just filler, here's how I really feel...)

Okay, to tell you the truth...this is really tough man! All I do all day long is clean, watch Sierra, take naps, and clean. I don't have any money to go out and it really doesn't matter anyway because I can never find a babysitter. My husband is divorcing me and everyday I get madder and madder at him. I can't seem to sleep at night and I always have to get up early with Sierra! Soon Justin WILL divorce me and I'll have no home, no money, no car and even more no life than I have now. Hopefully I can stay in school and still support me and Sierra, but I doubt it. I'll probably have to quit and work full time. Even then I will only be able to afford food and the babysitter...if I can ever find one. I'll have to move out of my apartment and find some crappy crap hole to live in and I'm just MAD!!!!!